stronger (what dosent kill you ) kelly clarkson

You know the bed feels warmer


Sleeping here alone

You know I dream in colour

And do the things I want





You think you got the best of me

Think you had the last laugh

Bet you think that everything good is gone

Think you left me broken down

Think that I'd come running back

Baby you don't know me, cause you're dead wrong





What doesn't kill you makes you stronger

Stand a little taller

Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone

What doesn't kill you makes a fighter

Footsteps even lighter

Doesn't mean I'm over cause you're gone





What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, stronger

Just me, myself and I

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger

Stand a little taller

Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone





You heard that I was starting over with someone new

They told you I was moving on over you





You didn't think that I'd come back

I'd come back swinging

You tried to break me, but you see





What doesn't kill you makes you stronger

Stand a little taller

Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone

What doesn't kill you makes a fighter

Footsteps even lighter

Doesn't mean I'm over cause you're gone





What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, stronger

Just me, myself and I

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger

Stand a little taller

Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone





Thanks to you I got a new thing started

Thanks to you I'm not the broken hearted

Thanks to you I'm finally thinking bout me

You know in the end the day you left was just my beginning

In the end...





What doesn't kill you makes you stronger

Stand a little taller

Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone

What doesn't kill you makes a fighter

Footsteps even lighter

Doesn't mean I'm over cause you're gone





What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, stronger

Just me, myself and I

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger

Stand a little taller

Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone

Faster - Matt Nathanson

Bewitched - Blood On The Dance Floor

My family on IMVU

I've come to the conclusion that my family is a bunch of sex crazed freaks. Yes i mean you Kitty, i love you, you sexy beast of a sister! Were a bunch of stripping, drinking, booty shaking women who use the girl when we need to god i love all of my family. were a close net family who keeps no secrets (if we can help it) ! i love my  mama, my daddie, my sissys kitty, megs, ans stephie, twizzy (i think i got that right) and my one and only  true bunny( brother) con - man your bat shit crazy but we all love you for it! i love  my nana whose  just as crazy as we all are! and my  grumpie whos the best grandfather ever, we talk about anime, hentai, and a shit load more!
to every one in my fmily (yes every one i missed to) i love you aall and always will!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
oh and i love my bitch ben that puts up with every thign i  dish out, you  champ i hope you get laid soon lol

White Rabbit - Egypt Central

Your magic white rabbit
Has left it's writing on the wall
We follow like Alice
And just keep diving down the hole

You can't face your broken promise
Our ties have come undone
I will not be used to be battered and abused
It's the reason why I choose to cut my losses
Your lies fool no one
Your magic white rabbit
Your white room straight jacket

Your magic white rabbit
Has left it's writing on the wall
We follow like Alice
And just keep diving down the hole
We're falling and we're losing control
Your pulling us and dragging us down this dead end road
We follow like Alice
And just keep diving down the hole

You can't offer your poison to me
In your kingdom of filth
White Rabbit
Straight jacket

Your magic white rabbit
Has left it's writing on the wall
We follow like Alice
And just keep diving down the hole
We're falling and we're losing control
Your pulling us and dragging us down this dead end road
We follow like Alice
And just keep diving down the hole

I won't be pushed aside
I will be heard
I will get what I want
What I deserve

I won't be pushed aside
I will be heard
I will get what I want
What I deserve

We're falling and we're losing control
Your pulling us and dragging us down this dead end road

Your magic white rabbit
Has left it's writing on the wall
We follow like Alice
And just keep diving down the hole
We're falling and we're losing control
Your pulling us and dragging us down this dead end road
We follow like Alice
And just keep diving down the hole

Your magic white rabbit
Has left it's writing on the wall
We follow like Alice
And just keep diving down the hole
Diving down the hole

Good Charlottet - The Anthem

Yeah!...here we go.

It's a new day, but it all feels old
It's a good life, that's what I'm told
But everything, it all just feels the same
At my high school, it felt more to me like a jail cell, a penitentiary
My time spent there it only made me see

That I don't ever wanna be like you
I don't wanna do the things you do
I'm never gonna hear the words you say
And I don't ever wanna.
I don't ever wanna be you.
Don't wanna be just like you
What I'm saying is this is the anthem
Throw all your hands up
You don't wanna be you

Go to college, a university, get a real job
That's what they said to me
But I could never live the way they want
I'm gonna get by and just do my time
Out of step while they all get in line
I'm just a minor threat, so pay no mind

Do you really want to be like them?
Do you really wanna be another trend?
Do you wanna be part of that crowd?
'Cause I don't ever wanna.
I don't ever want to be you.
Don't wanna be just like you
What I'm saying is this is the anthem
Throw all your hands up you.
Don't wanna be you.

(Shake it once, that's fine, shake it twice that's okay.
Shake it 3 times your playing with yourself again.)

You.
Don't wanna be just like you.
What I'm saying is this is the anthem
Throw all your hands up
Y'all got the feeling, sing if you're with me
You don't wanna be just like you (just like you)
This is the anthem, throw all your hands up
Y'all got the feeling, sing if your with me
Another loser anthem (whoa) 4x

Those Nights by Skillet lyrics

I remember when
We used to laugh
About nothing at all
It was better than going mad
From trying to solve all the problems we're going through
Forget 'em all
Cause on those nights we would stand and never fall
Together we faced it all
Remember when we'd

Chorus:
Stay up late and we'd talk all night
In a dark room lit by the tv light
Through all the hard times in my life
Those nights kept me alive

We'd listen to the radio play all night
Didn't want to go home to another fight
Through all the hard times in my life
Those nights kept me alive

I remember when
We used to drive
Anywhere but here
As long as we'd forget our lives
We were so young and confused that we didn't know
To laugh or cry
Those nights were ours
They will live and never die
Together we'd stand forever
Remember when we'd

Bridge:
Those nights belong to us
There's nothing wrong with us

I remember when
We used to laugh
And now I wish those nights would last

Flipsyde - Happy Birthday Lyric

Happy Birthday...so make a wish

Verse 1:
Please accept my apologies, wonder what would have been
Would you've been a little angel or an angel of sin?
Tom-boy running around, hanging with all the guys.
Or a little tough boy with beautiful brown eyes?
I payed for the murder before they determined the sex
Choosing our life over your life meant your death
And you never got'a chance to even open your eyes
Sometimes I wonder as a fetus if you faught for your life?
Would you have been a little genius in love with math?
Would you have played in your school clothes and made me mad?
Would you have been a little rapper like your papa da Piper?
Would you have made me quit smokin' by finding one of my lighters?
I wonder about your skintone and shape of your nose?
And the way you would have laughed and talked fast or slow?
Think about it every year, so I picked up a pen
Happy birthday, love you whoever you woulda been
Happy birthday...

Chorus:
what I thought was a dream (make a wish)
Was as real as it seemed (happy birthday)
What I thought was a dream (make a wish)
Was as real as it seemed

I made a mistake!

Verse 2:
I've got a millon excuses to why you died
Bet the people got their own reasons for homicide
Who's to say it woulda worked, and who's to say it wouldn't have?
I was young and strugglin' but old enough to be your dad
The fear of being my father has never disappeared
Pondering frequently while I'm sippin' on my beer
My vision of a family was artificial and fake
So when it came time to create I made a mistake
Now you've got a little brother maybe he's really you?
Maybe you really forgave us knowin' we was confused?
Maybe everytime that he smiles it's you proudly knowin' that your father's doin' the right thing now?
I never tell a woman what to do with her body
But if she don't love children then we can't party
Think about it every year, so I picked up a pen
Happy birthday, love you whoever you woulda been
Happy birthday...

Chorus:
What I thought was a dream (make a wish)
Was as real as it seemed (happy birthday)
What I thought was a dream (yeah, make a wish)
Was as real as it seemed

I made a mistake!

And from the heavens to the womb to the heavens again
From the endin' to the endin', never got to begin
Maybe one day we could meet face to face?
In a place without time and space
Happy birthday...

From the heavens to the womb to the heavens again
From the endin' to the endin', never got to begin
Maybe one day we could meet face to face?
In a place without time and space

Happy birthday...

Chorus:
What I thought was a dream (make a wish)
Was as real as it seemed (happy birthday)
What I thought was a dream (make a wish)
Was as real as it seemed

I made a mistake...!

Out of center

Have you ever had one of those moments where you were jealous of someone because they were with the person you cared  about more then your own life? Have you ever had one of those days where all you want to do is sleep and prey the world around you stops? Have you ever had one of those long periods of time where you just fear for the care, safety and the health of a person  you hate? Weather you hate them or they hate you? Have you ever had a time in you're life where you messed up something that wasn't yours and you were so scared you could hardly look at the object even when you tried to fix it?

The reasons  I ask these things is quite frankly I don't know what to do any more. I was in love with a girl and she has a girlfriend now. My sleep has gotten worse as of late, people have said that I am paranoid, that I am stressed out.to be totally honest i don't know what to do any more, the day by day scenes run by in front of my face. I see people start to date. I see people break up. It all makes me want to pause the world and take things one step at a time. I miss the days in life when I could wake up and smile the entire day because my friends would  make me laugh. I accidentally dropped my moms 80 GB IPOD in the bath tub and its recovery software wont even work any more and I'm hating my self severely for ruining it, she didn't seam mad  at  me for it but I just want to lay down and curl up in a ball till I die. No matter how much my mom irks me I'm still scared for her life every time I leave her. I'm scared I might never see her again alive. I'm fortunate to have family and friends who love me. But I  feel like I spend more time alone with the dog then I actuality  do with human beings. My heart beats alone in a crowd of over one million. I realize no one probably ever reads my blog  but If someone actually does, thank you so very much for taking time out of your day to  read my pathetic writing.
I'm going to post this and cuddle up with my Pembroke Welsh Corgi, Honey and try and find my center again.
(This is Honey)
~Little Miss I Get Tough~

Porn Star Dancing by My Darkest Days featuring Zakk Wylde & Chad Kroeger

Kiley won't kiss my friend Kassandra
Jessica won't play ball
Mandy won't share her friend Miranda
doesn't anybody live at all

Amanda won't leave me empty handed
got her number from the bathroom stall
Brandy just got way too much baggage
and that shit just gets old

But I got a girl who can put on a show
the dollar decides how far you can go

She wraps those hands around that pole
She licks those lips and off we can go
She takes it off nice and slow
because thats PORNSTAR DANCIN'

She don't play nice, She makes me beg
She drops that dress around her legs
and i'm sittin right by the stage for this
PORNSTAR DANCIN'

Your bodies lighten up the room
I want another girl like you
theres nothing harder to do

Stacy gunna save herself for marriage
but thats just not my style
she's got a bell that's nice to stare at
but I want girls gone wild

But I got a girl who can put on a show
the dollar desides how far you can go

She wraps those hands around that pole
She licks those lips and off we can go
She takes it off nice and slow
because thats PORNSTAR DANCIN'

She don't play nice, She makes me beg
She drops that dress around her legs
and i'm sittin right by the stage for this
PORNSTAR DANCIN'

Your bodies lighten up the room
I want another girl like you
lets through a party just for two
you know those normal girls won't do

She wraps those hands around that pole
She licks those lips and off we can go
She takes it off nice and slow
because thats PORNSTAR DANCIN'

She don't play nice, She makes me beg
She drops that dress around her legs
and i'm sittin right by the stage for this
PORNSTAR DANCIN'

"The Ballad Of Mona Lisa" ~ PANIC! AT THE DISCO LYRICS

She paints her fingers with a close precision
He starts to notice empty bottles of gin
And takes a moment to assess the sins she’s paid for

A lonely speaker in a conversation
Her words were swimming through his ears again
There's nothing wrong with just a taste of what you've paid for

Say what you mean
Tell me I'm right
And let the sun rain down on me
Give me a sign
I want to believe

Woah, Mona Lisa,
You're guaranteed to run this town
Woah, Mona Lisa,
I'd pay to see you frown

He senses something, call it desperation
Another dollar, another day
And if she had the proper words to say,
She would tell him
But she'd have nothing left to sell him

Say what you mean
Tell me I'm right
And let the sun rain down on me
Give me a sign
I want to believe

Woah, Mona Lisa,
You're guaranteed to run this town
Woah, Mona Lisa,
I'd pay to see you frown

Mona Lisa wear me out
Pleased to please ya
Mona Lisa wear me out

Say what you mean
Tell me I'm right
And let the sun rain down on me
Give me a sign
I want to believe

Woah, Mona Lisa,
You're guaranteed to run this town
Woah, Mona Lisa,
I'd pay to see you frown

Say what you mean
Tell me I'm right
And let the sun rain down on me
Give me a sign
I want to believe

There's nothing wrong with just a taste of what you've paid for

Little Miss I'll Get Tough

So I posted a pulse on IMVU feeling like I needed to vent, heres what it said and  the comments that followed. Note: these people are my friends and family and they mean a lot to me.

HexRavenAdelaide: I'm Little Miss I'll Get Tough and i wont back down. NO guys going to ruin my senior summer!!! I WILL FIGHT BACK FOR WHAT I FEEL!!! Its my life and no ones going to tell me who and what i am and will be!!! NO matter what happens I will be myself. I am a powerful smart woman who has feelings, F*** it all I'm gonna do what f***** wanna do and be what I f***** wanna be!!! Cause I'm Little Miss I'll get tough, I may get broken and hurt but I always get better, I stand a little bit taller with every mistake I make. My heart belongs to me and me alone!!!

~Here's how they responded~

AlexJordanAdelaide:  u go sis keep ur head up high (Alex is one of the few people I  truly feel  relaxed around, He's always there for me when I'm down and I'll always be there for him when he needs me)

GrandMasterSifuWolf: You tell them cockstain losers, Niece! WHOOP WHOOP!!!! (My crazy Juggalo Uncle, who I'm pretty sure is on bat shit -Inner thoughts- if only that was possible -Outer thoughts- He's probably pulling an all nighter)

HexRavenAdelaide: no matter how strong the concrete is it always cracks and breaks eventually.

I love my friends and family to death, and they crack me up and back me up when I need People there for me.

P.S. Wolf is a bad ass movie star. If anyone has an IMVU account and this has touched them or this has touched them please feel free to get a hold of me at Shyhinata30@yahoo.com, on IMVU at  HexRavenAdelaide, or even comment on my blog what ever you want.

Arms by Christina Perri

so ive  been listening to this song a lot the last few days im not  really sure why but it speaks to me a lot. heres the lyrics for those of you who have never heard it ill get the video linked in later

I never thought that you would be the one to hold my heart
But you came around and you knocked me off the ground from the start

You put your arms around me
And I believe that it's easier for you to let me go
You put your arms around me and I'm home

How many times will let you me change my mind and turn around
I can't decide if I'll let you save my life or if I'll drown

I hope that you see right through my walls
I hope that you catch me, 'cause I'm already falling
I'll never let a love get so close
You put your arms around me and I'm home

The world is coming down on me and I can't find a reason to be loved
I never wanna leave you but I can't make you bleed if I'm alone

You put your arms around me
And I believe that it's easier for you to let me go

I hope that you see right through my walls
I hope that you catch me, 'cause I'm already falling
I'll never let a love get so close
You put your arms around me and I'm home

I tried my best to never let you in to see the truth
And I've never opened up
I've never truly loved 'Till you put your arms around me
And I believe that it's easier for you to let me go


I hope that you see right through my walls
I hope that you catch me, 'cause I'm already falling
I'll never let a love get so close
You put your arms around me and I'm home

You put your arms around me and I'm home 

  

Angry writing day

I hate Christian Rodriguez: scum bag, asshole,  useless, scum. ROT IN HELL CHRIS! Your scum! A spineless, worthless!! useless!! husk of a man!! you  say I'm trash? because i do something to make me happy ??!! i did everything to make you  happy that i could! LOOK in a mirror asshole! your Logan's pet! your trash also apparently i wasn't slutty enough for you! have fun getting killed! its your loss your nothing to me! my heart may be broken but i have friends and family  who love me for who i am!  you controled me  like a slave! i am no slave to no one! i have a right to speak my mind! i have a right to tell you to shut the hell up! you never let me speak! how could i have possibly told you anything! FUCK YOU!  ROT IN HELL SCUMBAG!  my day had started off good and ended shitty because of you! go die! i dont care you  diserve whatever comes your fuckin way! now that your gone i can follow my heart! i can date someone who wont hurt me! your immature!  idiotic!  stupid! useless! when you had to go do something i let you! but  when i did  you told me to wait! well mu waiting is done! my life can continue on! my name is Mariah Krouse! the  girl who you hurt!  ROT IN HELL!  i hope  your next girlfriend hurts you as bad as you've hurt me! you fucked up! and karma is going to bite you in the ass one day and your going to wish you hadn't! someone is going to fuck you up one day! and no ones gonna  help you! Ive  got family that isn't afraid to kick peoples asses especially those  who make me cry, you don't know shit!  so watch your fuckin back  because this isnt one game i play half assed!  my life is under my control! not yours! not anyone's, my decisions! my voice! my SANITY! I HOPE YOU BURN IN  HELL!  i hope your life gets turned upside down like youve done to mine! heres a song i wrote just got you ass hole!

(to the tune of elmo's world)

La la la la la la la la 

Go die! (go die!)
La la la la la la la la 

Rot in hell! (rot in hell!) 

i hate your guts, your guts so much

Rotttttt in hellllllll!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Long week

Its been a long week for me, been made fun of in school for speaking my mind. held in  the tears of  pain and an aching chest. been  lied to  to by a  girl i thought loved me and wouldn't do a  think to hurt me but i was told the  truth. shes a  lying  manipulative bitch who i don't need in my life.  good bye roxie hello sin. been listenign to a lot of  music lately by theory of a dead man,  cartel,  and a  shit  load more.  dad went to florida and  fount me this watch over voodo doll. its a fallen angel: to give you courage  to fight back and restore your [ride whenit all goes wrong. lil frankie  and shadow  hasd a  new friend to play with. i love my  SinSin. well ima  get to bed its dads birthday and  i wanna   be there for him  and not piss him off. toodles every one. oh before i forget im getting  surgury on my lip on the  12th  ill be on  vicaden and laughing  gas to  ease my anxiety  of needles.
for anyone who actuly follows me on here thanks so much for  looking at my simple  little blog.

~A Sin and A Hex, what a  perfect combination~

Everything's Magic

Ferret property laws

So i was working ona project for pre-vet  on Ferrets and i found this picture. Its totaly and epicly true XD ill post later on gotta go to the middle school for ssl hopefulyli wont fall asleep!